One (anonymous) teen's take on her bisexuality.
I am bisexual.
I am not confused, not indecisive, not greedy, not a polygamist. I'm simply interested in both girls and guys.
I am still in the closet.
I have told a few of my close family members and my best friend that I'm bi, but other than that, the potential of people’s reactions is too unpredictable and terrifying to me. But I shouldn't have to feel that way. I shouldn't have to fear telling people who I am because the people I'd tell should love me regardless. And yet I do have these fears. I do fear that my own loving grandparents will try to “fix” and "save" me because they'll think I'm not going to heaven. I do fear that some of my closest female friends will be uncomfortable around me, that they'll say it's OK, but make note not to change clothes around me. I do fear that I'll miss out on future relationship opportunities because no one wants to date the bi girl that they assume will cheat on them with the opposite sex.
There are few people I can talk to.
I am an outcast in both gay and straight communities. Tell many straight people you're bisexual and they tell you you're just experimenting, just going through a phase, or you're just confused and will be "normal" again in the future. Tell many gay people and they'll tell you to just admit you're gay already. And from both sides, you’ll hear that you're greedy, want multiple partners at once, and can't be trusted in a relationship. We're brushed off as being fake by even people who have, themselves, been discriminated against for their own sexuality. People don't take us seriously and that needs to change because it's essential that we trust everyone with their own sexuality.
I may not be out, but I have a lot of pride.
I love who I am. I have never wished that my sexuality wasn't what it is. However, I know that that's a privilege because there are people out there being threatened for who they are, beaten for who they are, and as we've seen in recent tragic events, killed, all for whom they love. But even though pride is a privilege not everyone has found, it's a necessity in loving ourselves to the fullest, no matter who we are. We have to ride the waves and trust our emotions, ourselves, and what we feel is right, because sometimes we're all we've got; be there for ourselves. To quote the Internet, "if Harry Potter taught us anything, it's that no one deserves to live in the closet."